Of Junior Doctors, Malaysia and UK

It has been over a year I have not written anything in this blog. I guess writing my thoughts and experiences on a regular basis is not really my forte. 

Oh well, just to update everyone who are following this blog, if there is any, about the new life that I decided to embark over a year ago. For those of you who knows me, I'm sure you guys are aware that I have graduated and currently working as an FY1 in Hull Royal Infirmary. I am actually approaching the end of my FY1 training, only one month left to go and then I'll be moving to Scunthorpe for my second year of foundation training.

Many of my friends have asked me to write and share my experiences of being a junior doctor here in the UK. To be honest, a junior doctor scope of jobs in the UK is not so much different than junior doctors in Malaysia. Given the knowledge and experience a of typical junior doctors has, we are not usually involve in long-term management or crucial decision making of a patient. We are, and always will be, the main people to have urgent bloods done, making specialty referrals, requesting imaging for patients and most importantly the person to type in those lengthy discharge summaries. In terms of salary, we get paid on average £2000 per month, which is equivalent to RM10000+ in Malaysia. It does sounds a lot but hey, bear in mind that I am not living in Malaysia and I have to save a lot to finance any further membership exams and courses in the future, and a return flight ticket UK-Malaysia does not come cheap either. 

However there are some major differences that make the work-life as a junior doctor in the UK far more comfortable and enjoyable compared to Malaysia. One of the big issues in Malaysian medical community is the inefficiency of the system. Why on earth Malaysia doctors have to do three ward rounds in a day? Houseman does his rounds at 7AM, then the MO(equivalent to SHO in the UK) come at 9AM to do his ward round at 9AM with the houseman and finally the consultant will come between 10AM-12PM to do his ward round with the other two. This is utterly ridiculous! In the UK, all members of the team will come at 8 or 9AM, do the ward round together and formulate a plan for the team to follow for the day . Isn't this just makes everything much easier? All F1 and SHO know what the plans are for the day, clear instructions and more time to do other important stuff. 

Another big problem in Malaysia hospitals are the pathology and requesting systems. Now I know that not all, but a few major hospitals in Malaysia are computerised nowadays. But still, most hospitals are still using paper-based system for blood tests and imaging requests. This just consumes too much precious time. One of my friends shared his experience working in a busy medical ward with me few months ago. In Malaysia, there are porters, also known as PPK (is this correct?), who are supposed to help the doctors run the ward such as sending of bloods to the lab, collect the printed results and sending patients to the radiology department. My friend have asked one of the porters to collect an urgent blood result at the lab whilst he was busy attending other patients. Instead of getting an "OK" reply, the porter replied back to him to do it himself as he was busy. A few minutes later, knowing that the blood result is important, my friend rushed off to the lab to get it. On the way to the lab, unsurprisingly, he could see that the porter was 'busy' puffing a cigarette with his mates, chatting happily under a tree near the hospital gate. Hopeless, totally hopeless. 

In the UK, if you have taken a patient blood, you can just send it off using the air-tube system and the results will be displayed in the computer within an hour or two. And if I wanted to request a chest X-ray for my patient, I just need to click on my request in the computer and the porter will come and take the patient for X-ray about an hour later. Same goes for CT and MRI scans. Then the images will be in the computer immediately after the scan for the team to scrutinise it later on. Simple, efficient and most importantly hassle-free!

If I were to write down and elaborate all the things that I am unsatisfied with Malaysian healthcare system such as bullying, assertion of seniority, out-dated medical equipments, post-call shifts, cronyism, racism  and many more, I would surely got stuck here in front of my laptops for a full whole day to splash it out. But I chose not to. 

I love Malaysia and please don't get me wrong about my criticisms above. I vowed to be back home one day. It's just not the right time yet. Personally, I think going back home straight after medical school does not really make my voice and opinion heard and I would eventually sink and assimilate in this inefficient system. 

Hopefully one day, when I am a fully fledged medical physician with a lot of experience at the back of my hand, I hope I will come back and make  a positive change to Malaysia's healthcare. 

Foundation, foundation and foundation

My brother just got back home from a day of interview at UTP. It is a compulsory selection process whereby all UTP Foundation hopefuls are required to attend. My mother called me last night and excitedly talking about the experience of the day on my brother's behalf. Alhamdulillah the interview went well for my little brother and all my family members managed to get home safely.

UTP is not actually my brother's first choice of continuing his tertiary studies. He is actually interested in joining the army and wanting to be a highly-regarded officer in the airforce. Hence, that's why he chose UPNM foundation as his top two choices in his UPU application form. What's left to do now, is to just wait for any respond and fingers-crossed that he gets what he wants!

My Life So Far

A lot has happened in the past few months. Alhamdulillah, I have passed my finals in January, which means I will not have anymore exams to sit. I also got the opportunity to do my clinical electives in Malaysia for two months and the highlight of the year was that I just got engaged to the most wonderful girl in the world! Now what's left to do is to just finish up my final hospital placements and student assistantship and then I'm done!

I hope and pray that my parents could be here in Manchester for my graduation, InsyaAllah expected to be held in July. I have been thinking a lot about all of this lately, even making a list of activities of what should be done whilst they are here. I want to show them around Manchester, places where I always shops for halal foods, restaurants where I usually hang out with my friends and most importantly sharing the moment of joy immediately after receiving my medical degree with them. 

Special moments such as this will only happen once in life and I really, really hope my parents could be here with me this July. :'(

I wanna be in Malaysia!

I  am supposed to be in Malaysia right now as it is the summer holiday for students studying in the UK. But, due to financial constraints, I have decided not to fly back home for summer this year. The flight ticket would costs me just above £1000 and I will only be in Malaysia for a month. Definitely not worth it. 

My sensible logic tells me to just save the money for my electives in January next year, which only costs me half the price and I could be in Malaysia for 2 months. 

However, it seems that my emotions have been derailing me from my sensible and logical thinking for the past few days. The thought of not being able to have Iftar and celebrate Eid with my family and relatives kept lingering in my mind endlessly. Sad, very sad indeed.

I hope I will get through all this swiftly and start the next term of academic year in peace. 

The Queen's Surprise Visit

It was just a typical morning for me. Getting up in the morning, though a bit late, had my breakfast, put on my clothes and head off to the hospital. The different thing that happened today was that when I got there, there was already a huge crowd gathering in front of the St. Mary's Children Hospital and Manchester Eye Hospital.

People were rushing and pushing each other as they lined up the shoulder of the road. Great Britain flags with the Royal crest on it was put up all over the place. And everyone was ready with their huge and super-fast DSLR cameras in their hands. I honestly do not have a single clue about what was going on at that time! But from the atmosphere, my mind was thinking that someone special and popular might be in the hospital area right now.

Then there it was! After about 15 minutes wandering around outside the hospital, out of no where, a pack of police officers on their huge BMW motorbike queued up and paraded the small road outside MRI. Following them from behind were few bunch of Mercedes and BMWs. And there was this one special car (it was a Rolls-Royce!) that I noticed a distance away from where I was standing. When this car approaced closer to me, I finally got to see who the special visitor was - it was the Queen!

She was in a pink suit, with the traditional royal pink hat, waving and smiling back to the crowd who cheered for her. At that time she was actually on her way to attend other ceremonies held in Manchester and had to leave the hospital. I quickly took out my phone that was held in my pocket, firmly placed it in my agile hands and snapped few pictures of the queen as her car drove slowly passed me. Now, I have proof that I have seen the Queen after nearly 4 years in the UK.

In all, it was absolutely a great experience to finally met the Queen up close in real life. And definitely a surprising one, though brief! Opportunity like this comes once in a life time, plus you need a bit of luck to along  the way. ;-)

p/s: the pictures are in my phone. i am just being lazy to upload it right now. maybe later!

Life goes on..

OSCEs have already finished last week. And with a short break of 4 days only, it's time to continue on the module with 3-weeks of SSC. I'll be doing an audit in a GP this time. Hope everything goes well!

Testing

This is just a test. Not a real post. Trying to figure out how to blog using a blogspot app that I have just installed in my phone.

posted from Bloggeroid

Enjoy this lovely and breath-taking cover of 'Hold It Against Me' by one of the famous YouTube Sensation duo - Sam Tsui & Kurt Schneider!

I just love this song! Err... I mean their version of this song of course. Not the original one by Britney Spears. :D

SSC and OSCE

Next week is the final week of my SSC module. I'm doing my SSC on rheumatology and the deadline of submission for the case study is next week!

Here's an insight of how the specialty like - being a rheumatologist, your work comprised of clinics (about 3 times a week), ward rounds (seeing only about 3 patients at most) and mostly research and meetings. Plus, the only invasive procedure that you will perform on a patient is injecting steroids or other anti-rheumatic drugs for people who have joint problems. That's all!

People might say that the training to be a specialist in rheumatology would be difficult and demanding, but if you would like only a 9 to 5 job in a medical setting, not to mention the huge amount of pay when you're a consultant, this specialty is one of your best shots!

Some people might argue back to me that it is a boring specialty. Well, it entirely depends on you really. If you want to be a surgeon and working continuously from 8 am till 9 pm (depends on the complication of the surgery) for the rest of your medical career, and on top of that, conducting a really busy clinic the next day, then be my guest. No one is going to stop you. It's the interest that is of importance in choosing your career pathway.

And after the SSC has finished, it's OSCE come dawning at me. I will be having my OSCE on the 24th February, which means I have approximately 2 weeks to prepare. For those of you guys who do not know what OSCE is, it actually stands for Objective Structured Clinical Exams. In other words, it's actually a practical exam which will test the clinical skills that I have learned in hospital. It consists of various tasks such as physical examination, drugs prescription, consultation and even breaking bad news.

In essence, in the next 2 weeks, I'll have to finish writing up my SSC and then keep practice for my OSCE. So, yeah, it' s gonna be a whole lot practice and revision to do for me in the next two weeks!

Egypt & Exams

I have definitely lost my momentum to continue with my studies and resume my routine bus trip to and from Wythenshawe Hospital after the holidays. Don't get me wrong. I still love medicine. It's just that, as an average student, being lazy and doing everything half-heartedly after a long holiday is just normal, I guess. Anyhow, I keep telling myself that I will surely get over this lazy attitude and gain back my momentum after the first week of school (hopefully).

Oh yeah! About my egypt trip. The trip to egypt was awesome! The weather was great, the foods were delicious, and the company was cool! Honestly, the experience that I had in Egypt has exceeded beyond my expectations. I thought it was gonna be a normal and a little bit dull trip. The only reason that I agree to join was that I am going there with my bestest buddies - Ili, Yas & Mayura. But, I have to admit, I was proved wrong by everything that I have gone through. Some of the highlights of the trip include the enourmous pyramids, breath-taking scenery at the beaches and definitely the 'shoe tragedy' at the peak of Mount Sinai.

After 8 days of exhilaration and fun in Egypt, with a heavy heart, we departed back home to Manchester and had to snap back to reality and slam our face back into our books! And of course that include FaceBOOK! :D

Memories in Egypt with my bestest friends and humouros guide will embed forever in my memory.

Being Proactive!

I just had my very first meeting with my academic advisor today. It was just a get-to-know session between us and her and she did ask about how's everything going on in our firm and wards.

As soon as she posed that question to us, I had expected that all of my groupmates will voice out their unsatisfactoriness towards the teaching from our consultant. Let me just name him as Dr. X to keep his identity anonymous for obvious reasons.

Basically, we had a limited amount of proper teaching from our consultant. He is always occupied with his work and we rarely had the time to meet him in the ward. Undoubtedly, being a cardiologist is a hectic work but he should bear in mind that he also has the responsibility on our teaching. Even if he really do not have the time to meet and teach us, he should assign any registrars, SHOs, or FYs under him to teach us. Plus, his clinic is conducted at the same time as our PBL session. Therefore, we never had the chance to be in the cardiology clinic even though we are about to swap firms!

I felt jealous when I heard some other groups bragging about the proper teaching that they had in their firms with their consultants. They would always compare with each other what kind of skills, examinations and procedure that they have done. For instance, a guy would say they have performed a venepuncture on a patient. Then, there would be a girl claiming that she had done an ABG. And the list continues on and on. It seems to me as if all of this is some kind of a huge competition!

Going back to the meeting that I had with my academic advisor, she told us to be more proactive in gaining our teaching. Well, that was what we actually did for the past 6 weeks! All of the teaching in the wards that we had was like a ad hoc session. We would turn up and grab any consultants or doctors in sight to teach us something related to our case for that week.

When we get ourselves to the wards, we would always meet the nurses first and ask them if there are any patients that we could talk to and practice our history-taking on them. In terms of skills teaching, we could say that we lack a bit on that part because all the doctors in our ward rarely had a huge time to go through all the examinations that we did on the patients. Luckily, we have a clinical debrief session once a week to compensate on that! And of course, there would be certain time which all the doctors are really busy and they do not even have time to teach us and turn down our request.

In all, we have been very proactive in getting our teaching since we started our placement in the cardiology ward. We would always try to get our hands on every single teaching opportunity that is available. If not, how would we have even survived the past few weeks!

Life In Clinical Years

I keep delaying and telling myself to write something in this blog some time later which ended up I didn't post any entry for the past few weeks. Right now, I am pulling all of my strength and energy around me to write an entry after I left this blog unattended for a while.

As most of you guys might have already know, I have just started my clinical years in Wythenshawe Hospital and I'm gonna spend my time here till I graduate. The hospital is actually located quite far from my house, near the Manchester Airport, which kinda force me to wake up very early in the morning to commute. Basically, my daily timetable has totally changed vastly now. Everyday, I wake up at 6 am, get ready, and leave my house at 7.30 am and reach my hospital at 8.30 am everyday. That's quite an early time for some people to get out of bed, huh?

And when it comes to clinical years, all of my schedule are really packed with all sorts of clinical teaching such as ward rounds, skills teaching, clinical debrief and ward works. Most of the days, I will always get home at about 6 pm and feels extremely exhausted. Don't know if it's the journey to and from the hospital that takes out most of my energy but when you have a hectic schedule, it is unlikely you will end up not feeling worn out.

I could still remember a senior told me to appreciate and cherish the free times that I had when I was in first and second years because clinical years gonna is not gonna treat you well. I guess there are right and now I am starting to feel the tense!

The main entrance for Wythenshawe Hospital

In all, I think that the very early start schedule everyday is to get me used to the real life as a doctor. Once, an FY2 doctor told me that his work starts at 8 am and finishes at 6 pm everyday. Guess my schedule was not that bad and it could be worst. Otherwise, I am grateful with my life and will always try to lead an active life of a medical student. Peace out!

My New Sacred Resting Place

To divert my mind from thinking any other issues, I have decided to write about my newly-renovated room.

I have arrived in Manchester for about 5 days ago and really don't have much anything to do. The main thing on my mind was that I need to settle down and had a long to-do-list to prepare myself for the new academic term. And the first thing on that list was renovating my room. For me, it's important to have a neat, tidy, clean and comfortable room as it is the place where you would study, do your work and get a good night rest. It is the best sanctuary in your home.

Before this, I admit that my room looks kinda boring and dull. I don't have much stuff for decoration and the lighting in the room was not that good. The only source of bright light in my room was my desk lamp and it shines much brighter than the ceiling lamp. Thus, I brought my own light bulb from home to solve this issue. It's a Philip, an electronic brand that you can trust, and use 18 Watts to shine. Trust me, my room now looks more clearer and I could see any dust or clutter on the floor with this kind of light.

Then, it's the duvet cover and pillowcases. Since my bed is a double-sized bed, it is undoubtedly the main attraction in my room. People would surely have a look at my bed first before scrutinizing everything else. Before this, I have used a bright red silk duvet cover and pillowcases which didn't work out very well. Now, I decided to change all of that and replace it with a more 'metro' kind of style. Look at the pictures below!

The furniture arrangements in my room also needs a change to instill a new environment in this room. The new arrangements made my room looks a little bit smaller than before. But, I think the new available space would suffice for me to pray or do some indoor exercises. That's good enough for me. Let's just hope that there won't be additional furniture in my room later on.

Have a look at the pictures below and you can imagine how comfortable and neat my new rooms is! :)

View from entrance

My stuff

Look at how bright my room is now!

p/s: There is more to come. Some finishing touches still need to be done. :)

The Sense Of Dinar And Dirhams

I felt intrigued after reading a news article a few days ago about the Kelantan State Government introduced a new currency only for its state called Dinar and Dirham. Each dinar is worth RM180 and one dirham is RM4.

Whichever way you look at it, the fact remains that the opposition party of the Malaysian government has introduced a new system of currency. This new currency is really interesting as the last time an Islamic country used this syariah currency was the Ottoman Caliphate, dated back about more than 100 years ago.

The dinar and dirham are said can be used in more than 1000 shops in Kelantan and are accepted to be used to pay zakat and dowry.

As expected, Bank Negara Malaysia issued a statement, claiming only Ringgit Malaysia is the legal tender in this country.

Then, the Kelantan state governement said that their administrative staff will be paid in this new currency. Problem would certainly rise later on because if the staff were to spend outside the state, they need to change their money first which I would think most (possibly all) money changers would not accept as it is not an official currency of a country.

Some might see this act has something to do with politics and I do not doubt that. Maybe PAS also wants to create a sense of belonging to the Kelantanese and to show the world that they are serious in upholding the Islamic most prestigious currency.

The Kelantan Dirham

In terms of practical reasons, how much of the currency of one state can be minted and circulated widely? Lets just wait and see what happens next!

I'm Not A Superstar

My brother just showed me a video clip of a song, made by an Indonesian group called Project Pop. I'm not sure whether this group is famous or not in Indonesia as this is the first time I've heard of their name, but by the looks of number of views for this video, it is really promising. I know I'm maybe a little bit behind in publicising this video because my brother told me that this video has been popularly known since few months back. What the heck!

What attracted me the most about this video is the way they imitates top superstars of Indonesia in a much candid and funny way. Watching them copying the style and habits of Ariel Peterpan (currently known as Peterporn due to his involvement in a sex video), Glenn Fredly and Mulan Jamilah in this video is simply hilarious! You guys really have to watch it! Enjoy!

What's Wrong With What I Ride?

When we have reached a certain age in adulthood, our mode of transportation is one of the most important matter in our life. Your choice of transportation is essential as people would perceive your financial status based on that (at least that's how Malaysian thinks). If you are still riding a motorbike in your twenties or thirties, people would think that you are broke and they would look down on you! I had my own episodes in this matter which I think suitably to be comprised of 3 parts as follows.

Lets start at the beginning, shall we?I could still vividly remember that when I was 10 years old, I wanted a bicycle! A bicycle with changeable gears! Not just the normal, cheap ones. But my father objected my wish because he said that I do not need a bicycle as my school was only a mere 5 minutes walk from my home. Hey, I was a kid back then and didn't really understand about the things that I want and the things that I need. I made a deal with my dad, that if I were first in class again in the exams, he would buy it for me. In the end, I won the deal and my father had to buy it for me. I felt really satisfied and happy and continue wandering of throughout my 'kampung' with pride on the first day I got that bike. Really, I admit that I was a big ass show off back then!

Then, when I reached the age of 16, the craze for motorbike started. Well, this fanatic for motorbike didn't really hit me, most probably because I entered a boarding school. Being stranded in exile, away from this 'pointless influence'. Thus, I can see it in my brother and some of my friends who study in daily schools. The obsession of wanting a Yamaha or Honda motorbike was a priority, other than academic achievements of course. If you had a Modenas or Egos motorbike, you just barely make it to the par because your country-made motorbike is regarded as 'second class'. The more expensive it is, the more look-of-awe that you'll get! Whats even worst is that if you were still riding a bicycle to school, you could be mocked or teased by those idiot people. And having a 'first class' motorbike is also considered a 'tool' to catch some high school 'chicks', (Takkan nak ajak awek jalan2 naik motor kapcai aje kot? Tak hingin i! :p)

The final part of this ridiculous transition is when you have reached your early twenties. Then, the desire to have a car mounted up within you. You will then tell your parents that you feel as if you are getting tired of riding a motorbike. You will use excuses such as the weather is always rainy and your college or university is too far to be reached by a motorbike. With a puppy-lost look face, begging and hoping that your parents will agree on buying a car for you. But the irony thing about this part of transition is that the first choice of car would be the one made in Malaysia such as Kancil or MyVi, with the latter being the one most sought for. Not the Japan-made or Germany-made vehicles as before. Obviously because of the price of course. Then, the funniest thing about this part is that you will be filled with pride with your 'own' car and upload pictures in your Facebook the trips that you have done with 'your' car and posed with various styles to show the world that you now have owned a car. Even though the real fact is that the car that you are driving is under your father's name, haven't finished paying the installments and you still asking money from your mom to fill up the petrol. That is the reality and I do think some of you out there might dislike me for stating the real context here. Bummer, huh? Oh! and another thing, no doubt having a car will act as a 'magnet' to attract all those college and university chicks because now you look macho in a car to attend an event, rather than riding a motorbike soaked in rain.

In all, I would agree that having a vehicle is important to commute from your home to your workplace or university. But, it must come and be used with modesty and do not ever ostentatiously drive your car in front of your friends filled with pride and obnoxiousness because it is not you who pays up the installment of that car which does not make it your car. Yes, that is the fact! If you really wanna do that kind of act, just wait till you get your own job and source of income. Then we'll see the real car that you really capable of using. Adios!

No Operation For Me

As some of you guys might have already know, I was about to undergo an operation on my right knee. I had injured and tore my anterior cruciate ligament (ACL) in a rugby match during my years back in KMB. It is painless for most of the time but succumb to the fact that I can't play any rough sports due to this injury is something that is difficult for me to take. And for me to regain full recovery and strength, I need to have that surgery.

But, guess what? Yeah, you're right if your guess is based on the title of this entry. It got cancelled!

Why you ask?

The answer lies on the specialists. There are only four orthopedics specialist in the hospital and believe it or not, they are all fully booked till August. I was surely in a dismay state at that time and tried to plea if I could ft in any slot for the surgery. But my effort came to no avail. There was even this one specialist, he even opened up his diary in front of me to prove that he has at least 2 surgeries to be done each day till August. If I really wanna have the surgery, I need to stay back till August and extend my summer holiday till September. That is something I can't afford to do.

Another thing is that the doctors explained to me that my injury is not an emergency case. Which means that they will hold me back to give priority for the most needy ones. Get in the queue lad!!

I would have the surgery if I were to stay here till September, but that's not gonna happen because I will be leaving Malaysia quite early this year as my clinical classes will commence on the 1st of September.

I have thought of getting the surgery in a private hospital, but the doctor said that it would cost about RM6000 in total. My parents would surely stand against that idea as we are really tight in our expenditure for that kind of amount.

Then, the final resort would be having the surgery back in Manchester. UK has a really good welfare system for students because I don't have to pay a single penny if I have my surgery there. All of it will be taken care by the National Health Service. Sounds great, huh? Only the problem is, I'm not sure where I could fit in the time for surgery and recovery as my timetable would be really packed for next term. Bear in mind, starting from next term, I will be having my clinical studies in South Manchester Hospital from 9 to 5 for most of the day. Even commuting from my home to the hospital would take about 40 minutes one way. Will I have the time for the surgery then?

I am in a complete state of nothingness right now. I guess it's another year of 'sport-less' for me then. No intense running. No tackling. No kicking. Well, i could do for a jog, but that just wouldn't cut it. My closest friends sure knows how much I like to have my adrenaline and blood rushing through sports. Let's just hope that next year will fly past really fast and all goes well, shall we?

Don't Stop Believing

This is my new obsession! Glee's official theme song - Don't Stop Believing.

I've been listening to this song since I've started watching this TV show when I got back home from Manchester. Well, when you don't have anything to do, you would eventually find something interesting to fill up your time.

Enjoy this catchy song! It surely does made my day and could lift up a fainted spirit :)

No More Scholarship For Studying Overseas

My title for this entry may sounds harsh and could make any hopeful students worried, but the real situation is actually not that severe. The Public Service Department (PSD) is not entirely stopping giving out their scholarship but their scholarships will be given for those undergraduates who will be studying at local universities or postgraduates studies. If you would like to have a PSD scholarship at undergraduate level, you must get an offer from top universities in the world such as Harvard, Cambridge or Oxford, which I doubt will be easy as other foreign universities due to their extreme high standards and quota.

The original article can be found here.

Now, let us reflect this kind of action taken by the current government. Is is fair to stop giving out scholarships to study abroad? I mean, the scholarships are actually taxes payed diligently by citizens of Malaysia every year. So, is it fair for the government to handle the people's money this way? Is this action considered as depriving the bright children from getting better quality of education abroad?

Every year, about 1500 bright students will get the PSD scholarship to study abroad. But it seems that this number is not enough as we will always see complaints from unsatisfied parents who thinks that their child supposed to get it. To tell you the truth, I think this incidence will happen every year because the number of 'intelligent' students are increasing day by day - blame it on the advanced technology and workbooks! 'Intelligent' here for me actually refers to student nowadays who are just memorizing past years questions and then expect to get an 'A' for every subjects. Not much of a thinker. So, let's just stop the scholarship and no one will get to study abroad. And no students who just memorized all their way get to fly overseas. It's much fairer that way.

And then, people might say that the number of universities in Malaysia is not enough. I think now there are many universities in our own country who could cater the needs of education for our own students. Lets say that most of the students in this nation wants to read medicine. Before this, there were only like 5 universities which offer this course, thus places are limited and highly competitive. But now, there are more medical schools than that - we now have IMU, CUCMS, MSU, AIMST and much more. Hence, the number of places is not a problem anymore.

There are still out there who might associates studying in a foreign university with a much more glamorous status. Yes, I admit studying oversea brings much attention to me. But that is only if this case is being looked by lay-minded people. The new generations now must have been aware that it doesn't matter where your degree comes from, but it is the passion and desire in the profession that matters. Maybe this action of stopping giving out the scholarships will shattered the dreams of many students who dreamt of playing snow during winter or travel around Europe, but it is for the betterment of the future. Besides, if you want to play in the snow, or go on a eurotrip, you can always do that whenever you have worked. It's much more worth it. Trust me ;)

Don't Tell Anybody

Sometimes, our heart is longing something that we will never get.